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I'm sorry you're suffering. :( Your ex is going through an identity crisis right now. She has a need that you can't fulfill, and she's trying to work that out. Being with her again won't help either of you at all. She needs to work out her issues and decide what she wants in life, and that might honestly take years. In a little bit of time you'll be able to be her friend again, and support her decisions. For right now I would tell her honestly why you're not able to talk to her, and tell her you need some time and then would love to be her friend again in the future. It will get easier for you too, I promise. :)